So, what happened to not falling for the influence of peers and satisfying ones own self by being who they are, rather then what people want them to be?

I am seeing this happen to way to many people and to be honest, it’s starting to really piss me off. You tell me that you are an original, that you are your own person and you are perfectly capable of not falling into the pressure of those pot-headed “popular”. But tell me how can you possibly be an original if you dress, walk, talk, act and do exactly what they to or how they do or what ever.

I’m sick of seeing people that i consider my friends destroy themselves with such petty nonsense.

Not to mention the fact that with the minimal amount of brain cells you have you cannot afford to lose anymore. And yes. I am calling you stupid, and yes i am implying if you keep that up you are only going to get stupider.

You and the entire world is starting to piss me off. What happened to holding on to your innocence long enough to enjoy it? What happened to the sensibility that everyone used to have over matters like this?

Next thing you know i’ll see you popping out baby’s on MTV… 

cute vintage chibi i drew, because i wish forever 21 was my closet~

While i was scrolling down facebook i noticed that my auntie has all of our family pictures from since i was like 8-10 and when all my little cousins were small. I look at them now and think, they’re growing up fast. We’re all growing up fast. Makes me sad knowing that I’m not there in real life watching them grow more and more every year. I miss my hometown. I miss going to the beach all the time, and being able to go swimming when ever i wanted to. I miss shopping with my auntie and my little cousins andrea and brianna. I really look forward to going back home this year after DCI i over and after the blue devils so cal trip is over, if i can. Envying my brother who gets to go in the beginning of summer and staying for an extra 2 months. And thinking about it everyone will feel surprised when they see me. they haven’t seen me for 2 years and i’ve changed a lot since then. My dad would probably lecture me, “Yana you’re too young to wear make up, you’re just pretty enough.” or “You’re too young to have a boyfriend.” Which is fine with me. I really miss my dad’s lectures regardless if i actually am listening or not. But then going back, i’m going to worry a lot about jeremy too. poor thing wont be able to tak to me as much because of the different time zones, and i’m always busy in hawaii. But that’s fine. Hopefully home bound in august. Can’t wait to go back home!!

I’m just not happy

My tumblr crush doesn’t know i exist.

*sigh*

These kids across the mother fucking street

seriously do you know how to shut up? Putting the trash cans out side for trash day is not fucking rocket science!! You take them out you put them along the curb near your house and you fucking leave them there. It does not require making as much fucking noise as you can outside while you do so.

Angrily typing makes me feel so much better when i feel like crap.

I’m going to shower, dry my hair, and try to face time jeremy again

if he doesn’t answer the next 3 times i try calling i’m going to sleep

Making stuff with yarn because i’m good at hand crafting things.

Sometimes i wish i wasn’t such a bitch.